Fear is a liar

fear is a liar

 

I’ve come to the conclusion…
This is my finale…
The end has come…
 
This is been my thought process for the last month or so. I’ve known that this day would come for some time now; however, now that the end is near, I’m finding that my once confident self is slowly dissolving away. What’s replacing it is a more stressed out, fearful, can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel individual.  I’ve allowed personal doubt and insecurities to take the place of the glorious grace that fills me up each and every day. It’s not that I am regretting the decision to leave, BY NO MEANS!!! However, it’s the fact that I will no longer be under the cocoon of shelter, surrounded by those whom I am most comfortable with. As much as I knew that this was God’s designed will for me, something inside of me wanted to fight the tide and run for the hills. 
 
It’s called fear…
 
Fear is an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat. Fear can sometimes be healthy as it may prevent us from doing things likely to get us in trouble, debt, or even preventing the loss of life. However, for the most part, fear is the preventive emotion that restricts us in our walk with God. What fear does in our journey with Christ is prevents us from allowing God to move within us, thru us, and for us in his perfect design for our lives. Fear constricts our movements, stunts our growth, and hinders our ability to see God’s design for our lives. Here’s what else fear does:
 
Fear doesn’t allow you to learn from past mistakes…
Fear doesn’t allow you to see you were meant for much more in life…
Fear doesn’t allow you to see redemption winning on your behalf…
 
In this life, fear is believed to be the emotional and chemical presence within us that protects us from danger and harm. Fear was instilled in humanity in order to prevent it from allowing the rest of creation to have dominion and rule over itself. Fear has become the identity of so many people who create fear, hide out of fear, or run from fear. 
 
Fear allows terror…
Fear creates emotional bondage…
Fear disconnects you from the creator…
 
Someone asked me what I’ve learned about myself spiritually in the last two years of my life. What has God shown in my own life that has allowed for spiritual growth in this journey with Christ? Here is how I responded:
 
FEAR IS A LIAR…
 
I was, often as normal, guilty of submitting to fear. Too often, my decisions were dictated by the fear of failure, fear of disapproval, fear of losing, and the fear of not succeeding. If I thought there was a chance that I could fail, or someone would shun me for an idea or thought, I wouldn’t even consider making another move. Fear ruled my life, and I welcomed it with open arms. 
That all changed two years ago…
 
When I realized that the way I lived, effected the people I met or the students I led. I could no longer allow fear to order my life. I needed to put fear in its place. I came to the understanding that a person must have a healthy view of fear, yet not allow fear to ruining their life. It is within this thought that I’ve come to the conclusion that fear is a liar.
 
It tells you you’re not good enough…
It tells you this life isn’t for you…
It tells you, you should run while you can…
 
If you fall into fear’s lies, if you allow fear to dictate your life, if you allow fear to rule, you are not living a life designed by God. Coming to this realization was eye opening, heart breaking, and life changing. I had finally gotten to a point where I was sick and tired of fear being what stood between me and the life designed for my good. Whatever it may be, wherever God was leading, I decided that I would be faithful and fearless. With a relentless pursuit of God’s designed planned, I would run to him instead of running from him. 
 
Upon this determination…I decided that I was going to do four things in order to keep fear in its place and live the life designed for me.
 
Be in RELENTLESS pursuit of God’s designed life for me:
 
No matter where it may lead…
No matter the cost I have to incur…
No matter how uncomfortable it may get…
 
To look at the creation story and see how disappointed the creator must have been when his creation turned its back on him and yet thru it all, the creator began a relentless pursuit to restore his creation back in connection with him. I am apart of that story. This is my story. God has been chasing me since the day I was born. He desired to love me, comfort me, remind me over and over again that I am his son thru Christ. Over and Over again, without fail, God pursued me and continues to pursue his perfect design for my life. I owe it to him to be in relentless pursuit of that. I’ve counted the cost and decided that Jesus was worth it. Life spent in connection to my creator was worth the trials, struggles, and fears that I would have to face.
 
He relentlessly loves and pursues me…
I owe it to him to do the same…
 
Be a LOVING SERVANT to my family:
 
Love my wife as Christ loves the church…
Love my daughters as God the Father loves his daughters…
Lead them to a life of community with Jesus…
 
When Adam looked at Eve, there were no words, there was no breathing. Adam saw for the first time in the history of humanity something he could deem…
 
Beautiful…
Radiant…
Alluring…
 
Every male who finds that women who God desired life to be created with knows the feelings Adam experienced that moment in the garden. You’re left speechless, your heart beats a million beats per nano second, you can’t think straight, words come out as if you were speaking in tongues. It’s that moment when you’re looking at the creator’s grandest creation for your life: Your wife. I am still amazed every moment I get to fall asleep and wake up next to Erica. She is absolutely prefect for me in every way. I know no one is perfect and we all have our flaws, However, I fully believe that within God’s designed plan for your life, he has a perfect person who will fit with you in life. My job is to love her whole heartedly, to serve her unconditionally, and to care for her until death do us part. In the same light, one of the many joys and blessings in marriage is parenting. God graciously and wonderfully designed two amazing girls for Erica and I to love, serve, and lead. Keira and Ashlyn are truly a gift and I will be a loving father to them.
 
Be PASSIONATE about loving & leading students to Jesus:
 
Build meaningful relationships…
Build a solid foundation in God’s word…
Build a devotion to Christ & one another…
 
I look back on my life and see so many people who have in some form or another made a major difference in my life. I think of Mrs. Roberts from elementary school, Mrs. Rainwaters, Mrs Betancourt, Mrs. Bobbit from choir (yes, I attempted choir), Pastor Peggy Benson and  her husband Joe Benson, Ms. Ligas, Mr. Detjen, Mr. Hamburg, Mrs. Dora, The Davenports, The Bethea’s, The Cartwrights, Gary Holloway, The Perez’s, Susan Mays, Donna Sage, William McCleod, Serena Robinson, John Stamper, Jeff Jackson. These people and I am sure many more, made a profound impact in my life as a student. Without God putting those people in my life, I can say for sure that I wouldn’t be the man I am today. These people were never afraid to get real with me, to remind me of my place in life, to encourage me to live a life worthy of Christ. It is because of them, that I have such a passion for students. I want to give back what was given to me. I realized this on mission in Mexico City in 2004, God tugging at my heart, telling me to take his love, grace, and truth to the next generation. I will passionately love and lead students to Jesus and in community with others.
 
Be an EXTENSION of love & grace to others:
 
Be the hands and feet of Jesus…
Displaying hope to the hopeless
Being the light in the darkness…
 
No many people know my entire story. Its not a story I like to share very much. There are details I wish I couldn’t remember. But, how could you forget, they are engrained in my mind forever to call upon. I remember like it was yesterday. My father walking out on us and my mom. We were homeless twice, living in shelters, not knowing if we would ever find a place to live. My mom working jobs after jobs in order to provide for 3 kids and two other family members living with us when we finally found a home. Being made fun of for wearing the same clothes all the time. It’s apart of my story and I embrace it, yet it’s still painful to recall. What isn’t painful, what made me find the love of Christ, was his faithful followers who reach down with not just a hand out, but a hand up.
 
People who graciously provided the means for us to have place to live, food to eat, clothes to wear. People who invested in me to prepare me for college. I owe it to them, I owe it to Jesus, who gracious loved me, died for me, pursued me, and continues to love and prepare me for glory. We are called as followers of Christ to love and serve the hopeless, the helpless, the broken, those in need, those in want, the mute, the defenseless, the widows, the elderly. We are to extend love in Christ to them, we are to extend grace freely as it was given to us freely. We are to extend not just a hand out, but also a hand up in Christ. I will be an extension of love and grace to others. 
 
Fear…
 
Fear is the emotional roadblock that prevents us from living the life God perfectly designed for us. There is nothing wrong with a healthy view of fear. Fear, put in its right place can lead us to drawing closer to Christ and his plan for our lives. However, fear, if left unchecked, can cripple life as we know it. You were designed for much more in this life. Do not allow fear to take you away from the creator’s created plan for his creation, for you. 
 
Fear is a Liar…
Fear is a Cheat…
Fear is a Thief…
 
Refuse to Fear in Christ, Dare to live in Christ.
 
May you relentlessly pursue your creator…
May you sacrificially love and serve your family and friends…
May you passionately pursue the next generation for Christ…
May you be an extension of love and grace to others…
And may you know in the depth of your heart that the creator want you, his creation, to live without fear!

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